22.2.23

광합성 해야지

<15 days before rsa i guess.

i don't know better myself. today is one hell of a day, this week in general is. had mantoux test yesterday because a batchmate was tested positive with tuberculosis, the elevator at my residence broke in the middle of the day while the other one was in an endless maintenance so i had to climb a hellish number of stairs home. post-covid lungs are BAD bad. and then since my anaesthetist dr is going to singapore this week, she advanced our clinical session to today.

i kid you not, my first time having a clinical session by the university lake T-T wasn't too bad, though, but the sky soon poured albeit not too heavily. right now here i am, in the grabcar ride home, rethinking my life decision for the nth time. i just want to pass this time, that's all. 

15.2.23

stupid

stupid stupid stupid


why let your intrusive thought wins when you already held things well for months, really embarrassing why do you have to stoop this low really

you know how it feels when someone annoy you to your core and then why do you do it again

i'm so ashamed with myself i can't even describe it with words

so much for a severed past