tacky title for a tacky post.
i talked big about migrating to medium and whatnot but i don't even write there anymore. i am writing here with a heavy chest, and my chest recently just feels so weighted that i feel like if i don't write this, it will rot. it will make this hollow human, even more so.
but it's not like writing is a surefire way to feel at ease either. it's a sense of emptiness that not even tears can soothe, let alone not doing anything.
i want to spew more. i want to write them all out. but i couldn't. i want to throw up. it feels so suffocating, yet i couldn't do a thing.
oh Lord, give me grace. You have granted me this life. i just want to live it well.
