september

new academic year. i'm depressed when i'm surrounded with people but it gets even more depressing in solitude. guess i just have to swallow it all.

i don't even yearn for death. death means pain in my dictionary, and because i believe in the afterlife that death feels very scary.

i just don't want to exist. 

then this blog probably won't exist too. neither are my traces in this world.

i feel so sleepy right now...