7.2.24
aaaahhhh
30.1.24
15.1.24
truthfully
a grudge that distills is never mine.
forever uncertain if the very day i can displace the anger off my chest will ever come.
9.1.24
hey
just moved college.
these days i just attend all the classes and it hasn't been as taxing as it was. it helps me participate in pbl sessions better too. also... been alone for some nights, my roommate was visiting a relative and suddenly her grandfather passed away so she had to go to terengganu. thankfully my former roommates are just several footsteps away, so we have meals together often. for 2024, i've been keeping track of my expenses as well. and exam is less than one month from now, it gets me really anxious, actually.
idk, maybe i'll study tomorrow, today i really slept so long after being back from class it almost felt like a hibernation. my customer's parcel had an issue of overlapping tracking number so i had to go back and forth to posthub. she's so nice and she's been looking for the photocard for quite a long time, so i really hope things will smooth out.
anyway, i really want to complete writing my stories on ao3, but it has been really hard to write lately... let alone draw. somehow not being able to construct words / create art as beautifully as others does leave me feeling debilitated at heart.
wish i could continue writing after exam ends. i really miss writing.
5.1.24
merry january
thought i left the stagnant station. apparently not yet.
being a memory hoarder sucks as much as it is blissful. you cull over every page trying to sunder the halves you want to erase but everything seems to hold the same important weight.
24.12.23
catkins, contrails
9.12.23
hiking
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went hiking @ taman tugu yesterday after a long time, completed 30 full checkpoints around 5-6 km. last i hiked was in 2020 @ bukit simen... each time i felt exhaustion i am reminded of my roommate's mother who hikes all time since her daughters are currently studying at universities far from home (she's reaching fifty). also there are so many people who hiked that morning, and even toddlers at least two or three-year-old.
at one point felt blood rush to my head along with palpitation and i started not hearing my friends' voice. later when we're back, amirah told me that it is often a symptom that precede syncope.
anyway, a mmc grade 2 survivor at last... though my calf hurts like hell today.
recap: there's so many missing people cases these days and train tragedies, namely the recent lrt suicide, mrt putrajaya flashers, and an appearance of a strange man eating raw asparagus + causing other nuisance. my friends are currently having their end-of-posting examinations these two weeks. completed a masterpiece called murderous lewellyn's candlelight dinner. final rate 10/10. 0:)
that's all for now.